Eclectic adventures in lots of things.
School
It’s week 5 in Mixed Media and I don’t give a flying shit.
Dec 14th
I don’t.
I am frustrated with the art, not as much with the materials and the processes but with the fucking rolling deadlines. I hate how stuff comes out when there’s a single day of planning (~3 hours or less,) a single day of refinement (again, ~3 hours) and about 12 hours of work time to try to pull something together. I feel like I can’t even get comfortable with the materials or the concept because I have to work and have responsibilities outside of school. Worse yet, the instructors are no help, as they fail to realize that they live and work on a schedule that is about 8 hours later than mine, so I have to anticipate what they may say. God forbid I have to wait for them, because it turns into a last minute wrap up and turn in.
The relentless pace is killing me as well. Every 5 weeks and 3 days I start a new class and have to buy a new text book and new materials. Occasionally I get a stipend from my loans to cover this. Usually not, though. There is a break of about 3 weeks in the Winter and 2 in the Summer, but it doesn’t really make up for the constant pounding of the rest of the schedule.
I have projects I want to get done, and things I want to try with the stuff I am learning, but by the time I get that freedom, I feel like the last thing I want to do is deal with the frustration of the Art. I am rapidly approaching my bullshit tolerance. I feel like I can’t get anything made for a decent portfolio because I am working on such a shitty schedule and my skills are such that I am unable to actually turn anything worthwhile out of the classwork. It’s a feeling of constantly producing shit work, which makes me feel even less capable and leads to making more shit work.

For the Amusement of no one but myself:
Apr 9th
Every class we have our first assignment be “write your autobiography” which is an easy first day thing. However it happens every 5 weeks and I have better things to do than recount some biblical like progression of begats and what I do in my freetime. I thought I had written a fairly generic but informative canned bio, as written below.
Henry “Hank” Kuhfeldt
Hank Kuhfeldt is a Michigan native transplanted to the Mid-Atlantic region that developed a hunger for learning at a fairly young age. This does not mean he had stellar grades but was always curious and willing to learn. He can be said to have many preferred subjects in which he delights in chasing down obscure references and discussing in factual and hypothetical contexts. These subjects tend to lie toward practical philosophy, history, and the Western Hermetic Mysteries. His love of learning has led him to many different sets of skills, from information technology to logging and land management. He enjoys a challenge and feels that there really is little he cannot learn to do at least an average skill level. (Everyone has limitations.)
Hank’s first brush with the visual arts was growing up as a child of a photographer. He got his first camera at 10 and has had one ever since. In some ways he loathes the death of film and darkroom in photography, only because it was skill based work and required knowledge and patience to make it work. Later, he studied printing and pre-press production as a high school elective. There he excelled and created his own final exam, which while advised against it, completed successfully and received top marks for. Once computer technology became more affordable and the internet was prevalent, he graduated to building websites and designing graphics for them. In 2008 he returned to school with the goal of acquiring a degree in design in order to pursue a career that was creative and challenging.
Hank is not, however, all work and no play. He enjoys activities such as swimming, exploring new places and playing games. He is active in his fraternal order’s lodge government and writes interactive theatre/LARP on occasion.
Hank currently lives in Northern Virginia, minutes away from Washington, DC with his domestic partner their dogs, cat and corn snake.
Apparently, I forgot about the Fundies who need to make EVERYTHING about proselytizing (and themselves!)
Hey Henry, I was went down the path of mysticism, I ended up in Jail though, praise God. It saved me from making many spiritual mistakes, Mysticism is intriguing because it gives the weak the feel of strength and it is a great tool for mass deception.
Take for example mystery cults such as the Freemasons, they tend to let their “initiates” figure it out for themselves, which is erroneous because that makes anything correct, and lets not the truth be broadcast. What I mean by “truth” is that which can be measured or compared with to determine validity(measured) in a set of ideas.
How long have you been into hermetics, which is usually dealt with as mystical “medicine”, Or a “positive” reaction for the body.
This quote is from wikipedia, I know it is not a scholarly source, but it is still valid…..”Not all Hermeticists take a religious approach; some consider it to be a philosophical system only. In Hermetic religion the supreme Deity, or Principle, is referred to variously as ‘God’, ‘The All’, or ‘The One’. Many Hermeticists also align their beliefs and mystical ideas with other religions, Christianity, Buddhism, Judaism, mainstream Paganism, or Islam. Many hold that all great religions have equivalent mystical truths at their core, and that all religions share an understanding of esoteric tenets with Hermeticism.
Tobias Churton, scholar of obscure religious movements, states that “the Hermetic tradition was both moderate and flexible, offering a tolerant philosophical religion, a religion of the (omnipresent) mind, a purified perception of God, the cosmos, and the self, and much positive encouragement for the spiritual seeker, all of which the student could take anywhere”[18].”
It is interesting that you use to due logging since our text(Atlas of Human Anatomy), refers to men much like logs, which is symmetrical to the philosophy of Kabala and other mystery religions. Due you homework, and tell me what you get from this. I have the light and am not afraid to share it , in Jesus name.
Hm. Well, if you would like to open that can of worms… I mean he went to WIKIPEDIA for crying out loud! He must mean Business!
You could place me in the general category of ‘spiritual humanism’, or Classical Gnosticism. I have spent enough time amongst the different spiritual practices of the world to feel that without dogma, they would perform their functions much better. As far as Freemasonry goes, it is a spiritual fraternal order that actually leaves the individual spirituality to be the responsibility of the individual and their community, which is as it should be.
If you must slot me into an organized group, I am a Thelemite. I sincerely believe in the divinity of Man and the development of knowledge of the True Will, as well as the end goal of Knowledge and Conversation with one’s Holy Guardian Angel or Genius. I do not however believe that everyone can use the same method to become aware of their spiritual path, I don’t have the right to tell others how to live. I do believe in the basic tenets of Liber OZ, which is a declaration of the rights of mankind and the Thelemic paradigm of “Do What Thou Wilt Shall be the Whole of the Law.” with the corollary “Love is the law, Love under will.” Which does not say do what you want with no repercussions, but requires you to accept the consequences and rewards of your choices and actions. I believe in the paradox of Freedom, in which the truly free are bound by the responsibility to protect that freedom for others as well as themselves.
As far as the duration of the search that led me to this point, I have always been spiritually aware and curious about the various religions and belief systems of the world. The vast majority I have found lacking in some point of integrity or character, but containing some meritorious spiritual material that can improve the character of mankind and Humanity. If I had to associate myself with something more mainstream I would lean toward Quakerism, Islam, Sufism or Taoism, any of these have great potential as a force for the betterment of the world.
I find truth to be an unwise word to use in matters of spirituality and emotion, mainly because it implies everything else is a lie and not just the truth as someone else knows it. It discounts the personal knowledge and growth of the individual on a spiritual level as well as those who we could learn from.
So far there has been no reply.

One minor Mission complete
Jul 20th
Build-out was canceled today so I got to put together my work table and rearrange my work area.

I have to say the Ikea build your own table concept is awesome. This means no more working on a camp table cocooned into the corner…
It is my sincere hope that this makes it easier to do the drawings for classes. (or faster anyway)
Tuesday Twiddlings
Mar 18th
Received good news for school, consolidation loan going through (allegedly) Thursday. (Ferris: Let my Transcripts Go!) I keep getting the vibe that the work I do for money is less important than the work I do regarding the Sunum Bonum and Thelema in general.
Saturday was the big fucking cleaning day with some on Sunday. The Dining room is pretty well done, the Living room is at 90%, with some minor jobs to be done. The Office is a nightmare as is the Kitchen. We are planning on getting paint for the front bathroom. Hopefully next Sunday is the day to knock that bastard out. (New fixtures and shower hardware! YAY!)
Sunday was broken up some by the Symbolism classes at William Blake Lodge. They went pretty well and I got some reinforcement to ward looking to outside sources for information and hints. Brothers R and C were most helpful and I enjoyed poking through the imagery with them.
The presentation for FSG comes along. Making a tight 4 hour presentation will be interesting, and hopefully I will get the chance to run it at WBL later this year. I am working on locating a good deal on tarot decks (7-10 Rider-Waite, 3-5 Thoth decks) the best offer I have is 20% off, which is pretty good, but I’m still poking through the options.
Yesterday (Monday) Blew. Just a general asstastic day at work. I think I was tired/busy/sore and it was hard to function. I need to get my ass back to the Gym, which helps me regulate things. I declared the evening a Sabbath of rest and we had dinner in the dining room as well as vegetated and watched some season 7 Buffy. It is just getting better…
Hot Fuzz and Shaun of the Dead are on tap from netflix. Dunno if we will get to them, but I think it is likely something that may occur next week. We are starting to get into crunch time for Ecumenicon, and then C visits, then G comes for training. It is amazing the amount of stuff we can cram into a couple of months.
The New toy is fascinating. The fact that the X-Box 360 will do stuff with Microsoft’s DNA development kit means that I can also apply what I learn in school to my fun time too. I’m totally hooked on two old X box Games (under 10 dollar bin for the Win!) and working on playing on X box Live sometime soon.